20 week OB Appt
Went to my 20 week OB appt yesterday and they did an ultrasound to check the babies heartrates. All looked good. We didn’t get a number, and were sorta rushed through a 2 minute overview that ‘everything is okay right now’ per the OB. She told me to expect to have BH Contractions on and off and that they are totally normal, only to be concerned if they are every 3-4 minutes and painful, intense, if there’s bleeding, etc… I asked her what they feel like and she seemed like she didn’t really want to tell me. I want to know so that way when I get them, I don’t freak out. Yanno? Maybe she doesn’t have kids of her own so she doesn’t really know?? but give me some clue of what to be on the lookout for.
Braxton Hicks – fun fun *sigh*
I’ve been having Braxton Hicks contractions on and off for the past hour. About every 5 minutes or so. They are not painful, just a little uncomfortable. I have a ‘feeling’ that these are nothing to be concerned about b/c I don’t have any pain and it’s just the lower portion of my ute that is contracting.
If I put my hand on my stomach and push down a little bit, it’s hard as a rock in some places… then it eases up a few minutes later. It feels ‘tight’ to me.
Disability – leaving work.
The OB also told me that at 24 weeks they will be giving me a note to leave work. I work as a consultant and want to apply for disability when that happens. I’m not sure what the rules/regs for FMLA are here in NJ and with my consulting co and I want to ask indirectly so they do not suspect anything. Maybe that’s me just being all kinds of paranoid, but I would hate to lose my job at this point and then not be able to collect disability that I’ve been paying into for years b/c I don’t have a job.
Pre-term labor worries.
I’m really holding on to all hope that NOTHING happens right now. B/c I know at this point, if I did have preterm labor, it would be considered a miscarriage/abortion b/c there is no chance of survival for the littles ones outside the womb at this stage in gestation. They have to be at LEAST 24 weeks for their little lungs to have a fighting chance.
I shouldn’t worry myself over this, but I can’t help it.
Crazy dreams!
I’ve been having seriously vivid dreams lately. Not bad dreams. Nothing bad happening to the babes, just weird crazy things.
1 dream I had and it’s been repeating every once in awhile is that I have 3 identical little baby girls that are blonde. They are each sitting in laundry baskets cracking up. It’s hysterical and makes me laugh out loud and I wake up.
The other dreams I’ve been having almost everyday for the past week or so involve a baby boy. In one I’m breastfeeding and it’s just a mess. The little one spits up all over me and while I try to contain the mess shooting out of his mouth, my boob is freakin’ leaking everywhere. I just get so frustrated and grossed out that I wake up. Breastfeeding is something that seriously worries me. I want to do it and I’m almost counting on being able to. I know there are other options, and I can’t control everything. Soooo being the control freak I am — i get anxiety over this stuff.
And last night I dreamt that this little boy was sooo in love me, he just kept smiling and hugging me and saying “I love you mommy”. It was sooo wonderful. I laughed out loud again and woke up.
I guess these dreams are good ones for what they are… they are sooo real, and I haven’t felt sooo much emotion in dreams that I wake up elated.
How the babes are positioned.
Anywho — the babes are both in transverse lie position … here’s a horrible pic to give an idea of how they are both lying right now.
I feel the one on the top, A LOT. Kicking and moving. And the one on the bottom I always worry that I’m squishing it. With my seatbelt, or pants or when I bend over. It’s also the area that I feel the contractions in. Poor little one down there…
Since I’m only 20 weeks, there is a lot of time left for them to move around. Regardless, I’m having a C-section. Or that’s the plan. Baby A is officially the baby on the bottom and so named b/c it will be the first one delivered. Baby B is on top. I don’t remember if Baby A or Baby B was the girl. Ah well. One more week until all is confirmed 
I’ve been feeling kicks on the OUTSIDE, though everything the web tells me says I shouldn’t be able to feel them out the outside for a few more weeks. Uh yeah…lies. Unless I have some MAJOR gas going on in there. I doubt it. Especially since I don’t fart. *tee hee*
The House… THE HOUSE!!!
We are attempting 1 last open house this weekend. We were the only model of our kind on the market for the past 9 months, but now there are 3 other ones like ours up for sale. There is one that is soooo cheap you would think it was a foreclosure, but alas, the owners have moved and are paying 2 mortgages and just want to get rid of it. It’s not getting any bites, so the possibility of ours getting a bite are slim to none. After this open house, the house is going OFF them market, and we can start settling back in and working on the nursery and making some updates to the interior, since we’ll be staying for a few more years.
