I’ve been kinda scared since my visit to the hospital a few weeks ago where my roomie found out her baby had died in utero.
I have been super paranoid that would happen to us, and I have been making sure I feel movement and that it doesn’t change. When there is not movement, I poke my stomach where the non-moving baby is and she starts to move… I get relief and feel okay.
This morning, it has taken me nearly 4 hours to get any reaction from Baby B (Summer). This is not the norm. Sometimes I’ll wake up and it will take about 30mins or so to get her to react, but it took me 4 hours today and all I got out of her was a little bubble of a movement. I started crying and was freaking out, then I made some breakfast, b/c sometimes after I eat, they start moving around.
I took a sip of my instant carnation breakfast, and there it was, the little bubble from Summer. Phew.
I have been worried that maybe I squished her while sleeping, b/c I slept on the side she is on. And since she is so close to the outside of my stomach, I thought maybe I prevented her from breathing or whatever. I know it’s just practice breathing, but still…
Talk about paranoia!! Not to mention last night I had a ton of contractions, 3 an hour up to 4 an hour up to 5 an hour around 1am, but then I fell asleep and didn’t wake up due to contractions (so they couldn’t be that bad, right?) — this morning my stomach is tight as if it’s in one permanent contraction but it doesn’t hurt… Maybe the babies just moved.
Okay, I need to stop being so paranoid. My worry though is that something will happen and I won’t be able to make it to the hospital b/c of this damn hurricane. We are supposed to get about 7″ of rain by 2pm tomorrow. It normally floods when we get 2-3 inches, so I can’t even imagine the devastation with the flooding alone. 60-80mph winds in my area … great. It’s supposed to last really long since it’s a 500ft wide hurricane and it’s only moving like 12mph. gaaaah.
I think it’s time to take some deep breaths.
